Hamster wheels

Ever run so hard and fast but when you look around  you have made zero progress?  Hamster wheels.


  Work has me on edge constantly - very very unusual.


Buford is doing well - had to take him to the vet today to have a patch of hair shaved because he has a hotspot coming on.


Took Rio to the vet this past Wednesday  and they sedated him to check his knee. He has a partially torn ACL in his right knee.  Since he is so big (111 lbs) and active (think K9 version of MMA) my vet said his medical recommendation is to take Rio to a specialist. Financially I'd rather keep it at my vet - but realistically the specialist is going to be the best option for a great outcome. I am trying to keep Rio inside with me as much as possible until we go to the consultation with the specialist on 5/17.  The surgery will probably be the first week in June, since I will be gone the end of May to B's graduation in Texas.
  I am really hoping my parents will let Rio stay inside with them while I am at work - after the surgery he has to have 4-6 weeks of strict rest.


 Chicken news - none really.  Took the 2 little bought chicks outside today and put them in the big wire kennel. I need to figure out how to start introducing them to the bigger chicks and Pat, because that is probably where they will end up.
   Rabbits have been staying outside. I need to put a few more water bottles  / jugs in the freezer because it is already starting to get too hot for them.  I may end up bringing them in for the summer.  Blech


 Garden.  *sigh*  My garden.  Not doing much. A few scattered peas here and there, about a dozen or so corn stalks, some radish and tomatoes. Squash only about 3 of 11 have come up, no sign of mustard or green beans (think it was too late to plant beans).  Kind of aggravating and makes it very difficult to find the motivation to go out and pull weeds / grass.  Especially when my back is still giving me horrible fits of pain.


   I think I am going to have to just start cooking and eating at home. I really don't have the money to support groceries and Rio's surgery, but if I plan to make a go at this surgery thing I dang well better get on the ball with eating like the nutritionist tells me to and exercising. I also need to get on a schedule and start writing everything down.  It is too easy to skip writing when I am at my mom's.  I thought she would help more than she really has as far as menu.... she started out seeming committed to help, but now we have a lot of stuff like hot dogs, breaded steak, etc.


  Some of my depression and doubts have come up again. There are areas in my life that I feel keep me from developing the walk with God that I had at one time.... I know I either need to let them go cold turkey or work through them with Jim.  Neither one of those options is very appealing at the moment.   *sigh*