Catching up

Work was so stressful the last few months - always looking over your shoulder and expecting to see a glowing target on  your back  Thankfully the reign of terror has ended and we are entering a much more peaceful time.
   I was awarded the Sustained Superior Performance award and bonus again. I was very surprised and very happy.  I have made some adjustments for the future - many of them easier to do since I no longer have such a boulder of stress hanging from my neck.

  We finally had some rain. The pasture grass was brown and crunchy.  The horses have pawed until there are bare patches of dirt and sand.  After the rain we have a little green grass, but nothing to get too excited about. I am still running the sprinkler every now and then so hopefully in a couple of days it will be good enough to turn the horses out on it.

I had my #5 nutritionist vist of the required 6.  I go back on July 6 and then they will submit to my insurance for approval.  The lady said "end of July" but I am going to ask to wait until August. Princess and J-Rod have birthdays the end of July (28 and 29), and while there is only a .00001% chance of something really bad happening at my surgery, I'm not willing to take even that much of a chance on / at their birthdays.   "Princess what did you do for your 21st birthday?"  "I visited my aunt in ICU, she stroked out on the operating table".... "JRod - why are you sad on your birthday?"  "MY aunt died on my 16th birthday".   Yeah - no thanks, not gonna ruin their days!!!

 Besides that gives me more time to get some weight off. I didn't lose anything this past month and I had all kinds of excuses (Losing Buford, trip to Texas, being very gastro-intestinally challenged for 2 wks)... but the fact is I didn't exercise, at all.  I have to get going on intentional workouts.  I have been swimming the last few days in a row... really swimming, not just floating. And I do some exercises and play around so that I am moving.

  

 I would like to start walking in the early mornings, but since Rio didn't have his knee surgery I am hestitant to take him with me, and I don't want to walk alone. I guess I can take Rags lol

I did tell the nurse that I will require some anxiety meds - no exceptions. I can just see me freaking out in recovery and doing to my new surgery tubes what I did to the CPAP (shredding it across the room in my sleep!). She assured me they will stay ahead of the anxiety and take care of me.   I sure hope so.

Don't Pay the Ransom

 I haven't been abducted by aliens, it has just been a crazy few weeks.
First and worst - On May 24 I had to say goodbye to Buford. I have cried most days since then. I was unable to dig his grave because of insane back pain (where I pulled something quite some time ago carrying him), so I had him cremated. Oh Lord it hurt me so much to leave him there.   He is home now, but it breaks my heart to see the urn. I don't know what I am going to do.  :(

(More bad news, the last few days Elmo the cat has been missing. I don't think he is coming home this time around.  :(   )

 On May 26 I left at 330am going to Texas for my nephew's graduation.  Spent that evening (thursday) with my niece, Friday with niece and nephew then at graduation and then Saturday we visted a couple of BBQ places that have been on "Man vs Food" TV show.  I left around 5pm and drove 10 1/2 hours back, getting home around 330am.

Memorial Day, Monday 5/30, I was sick with a stomach bug - fever and such.  I have had stomach issues everyday since then and it is becoming a real problem for me (no details, this IS the Net, even if nobody reads here lol).

 Work is looking up, bad boss is leaving... WOOT!

I see the nutritionist (NUT) on Monday 6/13 for my 5th weigh-in of 6.  I am really nervous, but I don't know what else I can do... I am tired of little kids walking by saying "Why is she so fat?"  etc

Rio was supposed to have knee surgery on 6/7 but he was doing really well so the ortho doc said he didn't feel comfortable putting him through such a major surgery if it wasn't really necessary - I was fine with that decision!  Now I am nervous Nellie about everything - scared he will reinjure his knee and end up having to have surgery anyway.